One Unseasonably Warm Night in February

It was a beautiful night, 60 degrees with some fresh, clean wind, so I walked from the office to Foggy Bottom after work. I stopped at the Washington Monument, marveling at how the needle seemed to reach up right between the stars. I stopped again along the Reflecting Pool to listen to the ducks quack and splash in the inky night water. Then I stopped once more on the GW campus, my alma mater, and watched the students, most dressed in sweatshirts and either shorts or leggings, and thought, “Full circle. They’re wearing what I wore in 1986. They just need Reeboks and flop socks.”

More than once, I thought, “What a beautiful night. What a night to be alive.”

I hopped on the Metro, got off a stop early to stop at Giant to see if they had my favorite flavor of vegan ice cream. They didn’t, but no big deal, plenty of flavors. I got four: mint chocolate chip, chocolate almond crunch, salted caramel, and peanut butter swirl. It’s supposed to be 80 degrees here on Thursday. I thought I’d sit out on the balcony with Inigo and have some ice cream. I also picked up some radishes. They’re my new favorite vegetable. The wine section has a promotion running: Buy a bottle and scan a QR code for a chance to win Caps tickets.

While I was scanning my things at the register, one of my all-time favorite songs came over the speakers, “Come and Get Your Love,” by Redbone. After I bought my scratchers and lottery tickets—come on baby, Mama needs a new pair of shoes—I put my headphones on, found the song on Spotify, and began my walk home.

It was a beautiful night.

Until.

Until a light-colored muscle car pulled up alongside a black CRV.

Until the driver of the muscle car got out, and fired five or six shots.

Until the driver got back in, gunned the engine, and raced in my direction.

Until I ran backwards, groceries bouncing off my hips, wine sloshing in my tote as I tried to make out what kind of car the shooter was driving.

Until I realized they might have seen me see them and I dove into some bushes in front of a corner house.

Until they turned the corner, slowed just long enough for me to think “if they see me, I’m dead,” before they sped out of sight, tires squealing and screeching, the sound ripping through the beautiful night air like some kind of aural acid I will never forget.

Until I crawled out, got to my feet, and ran to the next corner, where a couple of guys in their 20s had come out of the house with the chain-link fence, the house where I can always tell when they’ve had a Saturday-night party by the ping-pong balls and red plastic Solo cups strewn about the yard and picnic table on Sunday morning. They must like beer pong. They offered to let me come in.

The CRV remained, hazard lights flashing, and I asked the guys if we should see if anyone needed help. One of them called 911 and got put on hold.

A moment later, the CRV took off, hazards still flashing.

Thirty seconds later, the playground, the recycling area next to the high school baseball field, and a two-block span of my neighborhood were awash in flashing blue light. Five, six, seven police cars and SUVs.

I approached, hands in the air, grocery bags and tote sliding down my arms to thud against my ribs.

“WHERE ARE YOU GOING MA’AM?”

This, over a squad car megaphone on blast.

“I saw the shooter’s car!”

“STOP RIGHT THERE. WE’LL COME TO YOU.”

They asked questions. Taped the block off. Asked more questions. Started looking around with flashlights. Asked more questions.

Other witnesses approached. They had seen what appeared to be an altercation between two cars at a light. They described the CRV as one of the cars.

A voice came over the police radio. “Injured female in a CRV…”

“Sounds like they have the victim,” one officer said to another.

An officer gave us pens and paper, and asked us for our statements. We filled them out by the light of a squad car. We introduced ourselves. They invited me for tea. I said I would go but I have four pints of ice cream with me. Everyone laughed, and they laughed again when I showed them the wine in my tote. At the end, the officer who took my statement thanked me and said, “We’ll let you get home before the ice cream melts.”

I live in a “nice” neighborhood. We have parks, shopping, nightlife, medical buildings, a county library, a high school on the corner, trails, two Metro stops, high rents, and a sense of community.

It’s an area where people walk everywhere.

Especially on beautiful nights.

But this is how it is now. This is how this country is. Heaven help the United States, heaven help America, the Beautiful, with its beautiful nights and its beautiful playgrounds and its beautiful parks and its beautiful high schools in its beautiful “nice” neighborhoods, because we can’t seem to help ourselves.

Sunday Stealing: January 8, 2023

1, If you could change the ending to one movie you have seen, which one would it be, and how would you reshoot it?

Old Yeller. I think we all know why, and what the new ending would be.

2. If you were to select a food that best describes your character, what food would it be?

Anything vegan: It fits my love of animals, environmentalism, and appreciation for health-consciousness.

3. If you could cure any disease, which would it be?

Cancer.

4. If you had to describe the single worst thing a friend could do to you, what would it be?

Murder me.

5. If you could be a contestant on any game show, which would you like to be on?

Wheel of Fortune. I’m good with word stuff.

6. If you could choose the music at your own funeral, what would it be, and who would play it?

It would never happen because the original four will never play together again. I guess I’ll have to live forever.

7. If you had to spend all of your vacations for the rest of your life in the same place, where would you go?

Europe. Hey, you didn’t say it had to be only one country or city.

8. If you could ask God a single question, what would  it be?

I don’t believe in any deities.

9. If you could eat one food in any quantity for  the rest of your life with no ill effects whatsoever what food would you choose?

Vegan ice cream.

10. If you could have a year any place in the world, all expenses paid, where would you go?

Finland. I’ve been fascinated by Finnish culture ever since becoming a Poets of the Fall fan. And think of all the gigs!

11. If you could forever eliminate one specific type of prejudice from the earth, which would it be?

You can’t eliminate just one. Racism, sexism, and homophobia grow up in the same toxic house. But if forced, I would say racism.

12. If you could own one painting from any collection in the world but were not allowed to sell it, which work of art would you select?

Probably something from Monet.

13. If you could ask a single question of a dead relative, what would it be and of whom would you ask it?

My mother’s father’s mother, to confirm her maiden name.

14. If you had to choose the best television show ever made, which one would you pick?

Probably the Carol Burnett Show. It was pure hilarity. Half the fun was watching the performers try not to crack up whenever Tim Conway did something.

15. If you could write letters to only one person for the rest of your life, who would receive them?

Letters? Do people still do that? I wouldn’t.

Sunday Stealing, December 18, 2022

My plans for December: 

Already had the office party and a couple of other events. For the rest of December, Season’s Greenings at the U.S. Botanic Garden, New Year’s Eve Game Night party at a friend’s, and not sure what else yet.

How energized I feel at this point in the year: 

VERY. I’m a cold-weather person. Went for a city walk with friends yesterday and the fresh cold air felt glorious.

The best things about the holiday season: 

Seeing friends, viewing all the displays, and all the celebrations.

Something that changed my perspective on life: 

My job. I write about mental health and substance use disorders, and I read and write about trauma a lot. The things people do to one another make it hard to keep the kibosh on my misanthropy.

But also, people, PLEASE, the stigma has got to stop. It is just one more trauma to the people who have mental illness and substance use disorders. No one ASKS to have a mental illness. No one ASKS to have a substance use disorder. If you have never had either of these, please consider yourself fortunate that you do not have the genetic make-up that challenges resiliency. No, I do not want to hear how you experienced trauma in your life and you’re fine. That is not the point. (And not for nothing, but people who say that are usually not fine, as that very statement speaks to a callousness that often springs from past trauma.) Everyone walks a different path. Everyone has a different experience.  Everyone has a different childhood. Everyone has a different level of resiliency. Everyone has a different family history and genetic make-up. The brain is living tissue and it is subject to injury just like anything else in your body.

What I seem to get the most comments about: 

The changes I’ve made to my style:

I’m slowly transitioning to my natural silver hair. Right now my hairdresser does very fine highlights that make me look blonde overall, but slowly but surely, I will be all silver. It will take a few years, as the hair in the back is a dark gray, but I’ll get to all silver eventually. Also, I don’t wear face make-up anymore. Laser treatments are a wonderful addition to my life.

What gets in the way of my success: 

Procrastination and impatience with people who are slow to catch on to the fact that not everyone has to do something the way they would do it.

News sources I trust the most:

Reuters, AP

Fictional characters that would easily fit into my life:

Skeeter Phelan, Andi Sachs, Prince Akeem (Google them if unfamiliar. It is a peeve of mine when people ask me things they can easily type into a search engine and learn for themselves. It will stick better that way, anyway.)

My relationship with spirituality: 

Atheist here, so not big on that.

How I feel when I’m being retrospective: 

Relieved. What’s done is done and what’s in the past is in the past. I often think, “So glad I don’t have to deal with that/him/her anymore.”

My thoughts on AI technology:

It makes hilarious artwork.

The odd/weird things I do when nobody else is around: 

Oh, I don’t hide my weirdness. I let my oddness out into the world. Deal with it.

What I do when I can’t sleep: 

Think about how I can’t sleep. Resent that people with night chronotypes are so judged and maligned.

The winter/holiday season tasks I enjoy: 

I don’t do tasks anymore. I don’t bother with decorating, holiday baking, etc. I used to enjoy making ribbons for gift-wrapping but I don’t really do gift exchanges anymore, either. Just a few friends, and a lot of that is having stuff delivered to them. Gotta say, I love not having a financial hangover in January.