Ice and Song

We’re expecting one inch of snow overnight and they already closed the schools for tomorrow.

I wonder if the federal government will also close.

The D.C. area really has become the epitome of wimpiness.

“But it’s the ICE!”

Well, we’ve always had ice. The difference is that it actually had to be on the ground and too thick for sand to offer traction on it before anything closed. I remember schlepping to a job that was a 10-minute walk from Union Station, basically skating across Stanton Park in my boots, and stopping to marvel at the unfortunate beauty of budding cherry trees encased in ice half an inch thick.

And yet, nature looks toward spring, even now, in mid-January. This morning Pierre the Northern Cardinal flew up into the tree after Balcony Breakfast and sang his first courting song of the year. It moved me to tears for being alive to hear it.

He kept stopping and starting as though learning and practicing, thus confirming for me that he is a young one and maybe even a surviving son of the pair who nested in the holly bushes last spring. I don’t know where they went or what might have happened to them, though I fear that their second clutch failed because of the sprinklers and they might have abandoned the site. They also may have divorced (it happens about 20% of the time) or perhaps perished of natural causes, including predation, as the average Northern Cardinal lifespan is a heartbreakingly short three years.

I love that Pierre has grown–perhaps in part because of his visits to the balcony?–and I’ll cherish hearing him for the next few months as he establishes his territory and seeks a mate, even when he routinely wakes me up before 5:00 a.m. next month. I hope a lovely lady Northern Cardinal finds his song as charming as I do.

For Susan

In September 2019, I met a lovely woman named Susan. She was the leader of the U.S. Street Team for Poets of the Fall, and their biggest fan in the western hemisphere. We were friends online at first, and then met in person at Prog Power in Atlanta when we saw the band perform live. At the time, she gave several others and me three bracelets each that glowed in the dark, red, white, and blue to wear as a way of welcoming the band to the U.S. The blue one burst, which gave my black t-shirt quite a fancy look, but these two made it through both the concert and the Atlanta airport and have been on my bedpost ever since.

Susan and I kept in touch through the pandemic, and made plans to go to Poland in 2022 to see the band, but alas, that trip didn’t happen because cancer barged in on Susan’s life. Yet a year later, just last September, she had the strength to go, and so we met in Warsaw for an amazing weekend of music and friends old and new.

How grateful I am that we had that time together, for last night Susan passed away.

My friend lived such a rich life, filled with love, friends, pets, travel, music, laughter, and adventure. I remember telling her, and her agreeing, that she was lucky to have found her true love so young, and to have such a great family. We didn’t always agree on ideology or things in the news–in many ways we were polar opposites–but what we had in common made us friends, and that’s what mattered most. The first time I saw Poets and the last time she saw Poets, we were there together, and that will always be dear to me. True to her favorite song, she was, and will remain, cradled in love.

I’ll miss you, Suz!

Adios, 2023!

Here we are, the last day of 2023 and the last day of Holidailies. I won’t rehash the year again because it was just too terrible, but instead will look forward to 2024. I hope to keep this blog going, but only a couple of times a week.

And now, my resolutions for 2024:

Attend every appointment of cardiac rehab. It will be three times a week for 12 weeks, an hour at a pop. If it snows, I will reschedule, rather than write it off.

Pursue, find, and settle into career fulfillment. (She said vaguely. But if you know, you know.)

Continue exercising after cardiac rehab. I walk a lot, anyway, but I mean on top of that. I doubt I will ever go back to cardio-kickboxing, but low-impact step aerobics would work, and we do have a few treadmills in my building that I can use during inclement weather. This won’t be a challenge. I like to dance my butt off. I like to move it move it. (Woman! Physically fit, physically fit, physically, physically, physically. Woman! Physically fit, physically fit, physically, physically, physically… You’re welcome.)

Drop 20 pounds. Yes, I know. Me and 100 million other Americans. But I kind of have to, for my heart’s sake. Plus, ya know, I just want to. I feel better thinner—lighter on my feet and healthier overall—and my clothes look better.

Resume my tarot practice. I’ve gotten away from it and I miss it. Who knows? Maybe I’ll start a separate blog or socials about that. I’m not sure I’ll ever read for people I don’t already know personally, but it might be fun to join a few groups online to exchange readings.

I think these are all reasonable goals. I would add journaling on paper to the list but I know myself well enough to know that aside from a tarot journal, I’m terrible at sticking to paper journals. I have so many of them, too. At this point, they may very well end up being decorative items for a bookcase, heh.

And with that, I wish all of you a happy, healthy, and safe 2024. Now let’s give 2023 the boot!

A Christmas ornament in the shape of a boot.