Missed Connection

Photo of a desk phone in a dimly lit room.
Image: Giorgio Trovato

Yesterday I watched Rose Red, a 2002 three-part mini-series about a haunted house. I can’t recommend it because the acting was so utterly terrible and didn’t do Stephen King’s screenplay any justice, but it did get me thinking about the vibes and weird events in some of the apartments I’ve had over the years, so I’ll share a few of my experiences over the next few entries.

For instance, when I lived in my second apartment on Long Island, I still had a landline on my desk and occasionally the receiver would fall off of the cradle and crash to the floor.

At first I thought it was because of the cord, which was long enough for me to walk across the bedroom from the desk and therefore somewhat heavy as phone cords go. But then it occurred to me that the receiver would only fall while I was alone in the bedroom. It never happened when I was in another room or not home, and it never happened when my then-boyfriend was over—and he could have some heavy footsteps at times.

After the fourth or fifth time the receiver fell off the cradle I got annoyed and replaced the long cord with a shorter cord from the box of miscellaneous cords and wires I had amassed over the years. I also started covering my (rather small) desk with a bath towel after shutting off my laptop for the day because sometimes the receiver would fall off the cradle at night and scare the crap out of me as I was drifting off to sleep, and I figured that the weight of the towel would hold it in place.

But that didn’t stop the receiver from falling off the cradle during the day. It happened again, and again, and again.

Finally I picked up the receiver to tell whoever it was go to the light, but as soon as I touched it I got the strange feeling it was my mother, who had died in 2000 after a long illness. Right before she died my father had called my phone at work to tell me she was about to receive last rites. The priest came in while we were on the phone so we hung up. My father then called a few minutes later, while I was in the ladies room composing myself, but he didn’t leave a message. He called again right after that and left a message that she had died, along with a number at the hospital to call him. Looking back on it now, I wonder if the second call, the one where he left no message, was for me to talk to my mother one last time, and even if he held the receiver to her ear so she could hear the voice of one of her daughters one last time (and ugh, heard my voicemail message instead), but I suppose I’ll never know because he died in 2005.

So there I sat, holding the receiver to my ear.

“Mom?”

Just a dial tone.

Of course.

I hung up, curled the cord so that the cord was entirely on the surface of the desk, and sat on the edge of my bed staring at the phone.

And so help me, the cord uncurled and slipped off the edge of the desk.

“Go to the light!” I barked. Oh, it came out so harshly in my fright, and I regretted it the second I said it.

“I’m sorry. Mom, if that’s you, I know you’re here, and I love you and miss you. Thank you for watching over me, but it’s okay to go to the light,” I said, this time more gently. “And if you’re not my mom, you should know that you’ve died and we can’t talk on the phone. I can’t help you. You need to go to the light.”

I lived in that apartment for almost three more years after that, and the receiver never fell off the cradle again.

With Fangs Atingle

Ah, October. It’s my favorite month of the year, fiery with autumn leaves and early sunsets, bountiful with the fall harvest, and blissfully cooler, at least at night while the D.C. area embarks on its second summer.

This year October is a wee bit extra special to me, as I’m feeling a pull back to the spooky and creeptastic. During the pandemic lockdowns I lost much of my taste for things frightening or dark. Even though Inigo kept me company—and oh, how I miss him so!—it seemed a little risky in terms of mental health to stare into the abyss while cooped up. Besides, the abyss was already staring back at me, what with the worst of humanity unleashing its lizard brain and throwing tantrums left and right about things like being asked to wear a mask, get vaccinated, and accept the outcome of democratic election.

Then Russia invaded Ukraine, thus pissing off pretty much the entire world, including Russia’s own people. Being an early Gen-Xer, I watched the Berlin Wall come down when I was 22 and then spent the following two decades of post-Cold War thawing working on deprograming myself of all the crap and propaganda I learned as a kid, so I was hoping we’d never come back to brinkmanship again. So much for that.

Then it became undeniable (to rational people at least) that all of humanity’s environmental abuse has come to its full and ugly fruition. Way to go, homo sapiens: The planet is simultaneously burning, flooding, choking, and collapsing.

Well, to me all of that is far more terrifying than any fiction the human mind can dream up. Indeed, vampires, ghosts, werewolves, fallen angels, and other creatures of the night now often strike me as preferable company to human primates, at least in a general sense.

And so here I am, giving Horrordailies a go. This month I’ll be writing about everything from scary movies to myths and legends to cemeteries to misunderstood birds and animals that people often associate with bad luck but really shouldn’t. I’ll probably throw in some photos and vampire poetry, and whatever else grabs me in a moment of nocturnal musing. To borrow the words of a friend and blogger who died a long time ago, thanks for being here.

Movie goal.

After looking for my favorite Hulk Smash video earlier today—I watch it for catharsis when I’m really, REALLY mad—I got to wondering how many Marvel movies there have been. Turns out there are 40 so far. FORTY. So I might watch one a week for the next however many weeks, for the heck of it. I’ve seen about ten of them, all about Iron Man, Thor, Captain America, Spiderman, or The Avengers, but I’ve never seen Ant Man, Guardians of the Galaxy, etc. It could be a goal for 2023. I’m going to watch them in story order, not release date order (i.e, Captain America: The First Avenger first, not Iron Man), as I want to move along the timeline of their universe, not Hollywood.

Iron Man is my favorite. I love Tony Stark’s snark. Captain America reminds me too much of my ex-husband, but blond. Same hairstyle, jawline, and profile. Iron Man’s attitude reminds me a little of an ex-boyfriend, too. Hmm, two strikes. Maybe the next one will be Thor.

I don’t know why I fell out of watching them. My tastes run toward horror and art-house/indie films, but I always got a kick out of superhero movies. It springs from watching Flash Gordon as a kid—the black-and-white ones from the mid-1950s with Steve Holland that ran on PBS on Friday nights in the 1970s. I used to watch them with my father, who was a Flash Gordon fan going back to the 1930s and Buster Crabbe. Maybe I’ll see if I can find all of those to watch, too.

Hey, the D.C. area is supposed to get a fair amount of snow this winter. Gotta have something to go with the cocoa.