Rockin’ the Red

Tonight’s entry is inspired by Mary over at Red Nose, a devout hockey and Washington Capitals fan.

I love hockey, too. One of my first memories, if not the first memory I had, is of my father sitting on the edge of my parents’ bed listening to a game on the radio.

“What are you doing, Daddy?”

“I’m listening to the Rangers game.”

“What’s a Rangers game?”

And the rest was history. My father was a Rangers fan until Long Island got its own hockey team, the Islanders. Then he switched. He used to love the “grudge matches” between the Rangers and the Islanders, which, admittedly, have always been pretty intense, even rather bloody at times. I grew up an Islanders fan, as the team’s first season was 1972-1973, when I was six years old, and enjoyed the fun of being in high school for most of the Islanders Stanley Cup Dynasty.

Then in the 1990s, after I decided to make the D.C. area my home, I decided to adopt a local team, and so I adopted the Capitals. I had season tickets in the 1997-1998 season, when they went all the way to the Stanley Cup finals only to be swept by the Detroit Red Wings (still can’t stand ’em). That season coincided with my Year Off from Men, and I traveled with friends to see the Caps play in a whole bunch of different cities, including in western Canada in Edmonton, Calgary, and Vancouver. I went full die-hard, actually.

My parents were not pleased. In fact, when I went home to visit one Christmas, there was a sign on the front door in my mother’s handwriting: “This entrance for Islanders fans only. All others use rear door.”

AND SHE MADE ME DO IT, TOO. I remember my father telling me “You’re lucky we didn’t change the locks. I had to talk her out of it.”

“Don’t worry, I still love the Mets.”

Wrong thing to say, as my family was a house divided on that, with my father a Mets fan and my mother a Yankees fan. And my father called me out on that, too. “You can’t pick a Washington baseball team because they don’t have one.” (The Nationals came back to D.C. in 2005. And, um, well, I adopted them, too, but my parents were both gone by that point.)

“Okay, the Jets. I will always love the Jets.”

At least I stayed true to my word on that, bag over my head and all—yes, we still do that—because they haven’t won a Super Bowl since I was two years old. I am now 58, so do the math.

A New York Jets footbal fan wearing a paper bag over his head that says "Same old Jets."
Image: USA TODAY NETWORK via Imagn Images

I’m willing to bet the guy next to him with his eyes shut is a Jets fan, too. The expression says it all.

But I will never—and I mean NEVER—be a fan of the D.C. football team. I never liked the name “Redskins,” but “Commanders?” What kind of tone-deaf Handmaid’s Tale toxic masculinity crap is that? NO, don’t tell me it refers to the military. D.C. is one of the most well-read and liberal cities in the country, and The Handmaid’s Tale TV series was in its white-knuckling fifth season when the new name took effect. Whoever made the decision didn’t read the room.

As for hockey, I’m sticking with the Caps. If the Islanders go further in the playoffs than the Caps, I’ll root for them, but my heart rocks the Red, and so here is tonight’s ornament.

A Christmas ornament featuring a figuring of a Washington Capitals hockey player.



Thank You, 39

For years I’ve considered getting the White House Historical Association Christmas ornament. There is a new one each year, but last Christmas was the first time I put up my tree since 2013, so it wasn’t on my radar. A former employer sends them to a few people on their board as an annual gift, and I remember seeing the 2017 ornament honoring Franklin Delano Roosevelt and thinking “if I ever put up a tree again.”

Well, this year’s ornament honors Jimmy Carter, a President whose administration was plagued by things like double-digit inflation and the hostage crisis in Iran. (I once met a Marine who was one of those hostages, but that’s an entry for another day.) In fact, Carter’s sole term as President was pretty rough, and he left office with a 34% approval rating after Ronald Reagan clobbered him in the 1980 election. Even my father, a New Deal Democrat, voted for Reagan because the country was in such a malaise from all the problems at the time.

So why start collecting these ornaments with Carter’s? Well, he’s probably the best former President this country has ever had. He has compassion and grace, and he was active in promoting good causes, doing volunteer work, and advocating for peace for as long as his health allowed. I have tremendous respect for him and admire all he did and tried to do on the right side of history, such as the Camp David Accords, and the way he championed human rights, civil rights, and the environment. I think Carter’s presidency was really just a kind of awful rehearsal for the bigger, bolder advocacy he was able to do more freely after leaving the White House. His life has been one of service, starting with attending the U.S. Naval Academy and subsequent seven years in the Navy, and I believe that if his health allowed, he’d still be out there trying to save the world.

Carter is now 100 years old and has been in hospice for two years, and I wish him nothing but peace and joy for however long he is with us. He is the first President to live to see his White House Christmas ornament unveiled, and I hope he likes it.

A Christmas ornament in the shape of an anchor, to honor former U.S. President Jimmy Carter.

No Sugar-Plums Here

Today Holidailies asks about things I once thought I’d do that I now know I’ll never ever do.

At first I thought, “Write a best-selling novel.” Then I realized that was defeatist. I’m only 58. I can’t rule that out yet. So I’ll go with the practical: Have kids.

Yes, Ms. Zero Population Growth over here once thought she’d have kids. This was when I was a kid, myself, playing house with dolls. In high school I began to doubt that I wanted kids. One of my sisters returned home to my parents’ house when she was in her mid-20s, divorced with two young kids in tow, and I got to babysit them that summer while she worked. Oh, they were fine and as well-behaved as you could expect a four-year-old and a seven-year-old to be. But ya know? I just wasn’t feeling it. Some teenage girls love kids—their mother did when she was in high school—but I didn’t have either the patience or maturity to deal with fights, crying, or trying to entertain them. Basically, I shut them up with ice cream.

Then I supposed I’d get married and have kids one day with my college sweetheart. Thank gawd that didn’t work out because while we were dating his mother married a guy who was tied to the Gambino family. As an Italian-American in the New York, New Jersey, Connecticut tri-state area, I wasn’t dating a Jewish boy only to fall in as a Mob wife. See also, although he had a nice start in life—prep school, transfered out of my alma mater to an Ivy League school after his sophomore year, went to law school, became an assistant district attorney down South—he blew it. Big time. Last I Googled him, he got disbarred because he got caught up in one of those awful scams where crooks sell older people fake insurance policies costing hundreds of dollars and worth nothing, and he ended up doing some time for it. Dodged a bullet there, boy howdy.

Anyway, in college I thought that if I was going to have a family, it might have been with him because I loved him, he was very devoted and faithful—almost doting—we had fun, his future was super bright, the kids would have wanted for nothing, and the icing was that the kids would have picked up some good tickets to the genetic lottery because the guy was also a model and had been a nationally ranked tennis player before he got injured, right before we met. I think even my Roman Catholic parents were past freaking out that he was Jewish because he looked so good on paper. Heck, at my childhood bestie’s wedding shower, my broad circle of Italian elders even said, “Wait, he wants to be a lawyer? Forget finding an Italian doctor. Go with the Jewish lawyer. He’ll treat you better.”

Gawd, growing up on Long Island was a riot.

Anyway, my college sweetheart did something bone-headed and made a big life decision, like drop it on me that he had been accepted to law school in California when I didn’t even know he had applied there. He just assumed I’d go out there with him. Well, kids, as I established with you a few entries ago, I don’t go anywhere just because a man says so, and as I wasn’t about to move there, I broke up with him. (And he ended up not going to law school there after all. He went to law school in—say it with me—D.C.)

After that, at the ripe old age of 22, I realized I didn’t want kids. Told every guy I dated after that the same thing. Some believed me and we parted ways, others thought they could convince me otherwise but they couldn’t. Even my ex-husband, who swore up and down he didn’t want them, decided two years into the marriage he might want them after all, and that was a major reason I divorced him. Yes, I divorced rather than have kids. That’s how much I didn’t want them.

It’s funny, no one in my family believed I didn’t want them, either, except my mother, who told me not to get married unless I did. (I should have listened!) The rest of them—my sisters, my father, my other relatives—were all “oh, when you meet the right guy, you’ll want them.”

“The right guy won’t want them either.”

“You’re young. You’ll change your mind.”

exasperated sigh

One day when I was in my mid-20s, my father really got on my last nerve with it. I was home visiting and he gave me the ol’ “When are you going to find a guy and have babies?”

“I’m going out to the bar tonight. It can be arranged.”

He looked at my mother, who I’m pretty sure was trying not to burst out laughing. “You believe this? Where did we go wrong?”

“What ‘go wrong?'” she said. “You have four grandkids from two of the other ones [two of my three sisters] so far. Two boys and two girls. What more do you want? Get off her back.”

“A WOMAN IS NOT COMPLETE WITHOUT A HUSBAND AND CHILDREN.”

“Oh, blow it out your ass.”

How I miss that woman.

Anyway, at 42 endometriosis got the better of me, I had all the plumbing taken out, celebrated with some gorgeous, expensive, high-threadcount white sheets, and here I am at 58, kid-free, no regrets.

And now for today’s ornament, one of the new deer.

A reindeer Christmas ornament.